.Thursday, April 29, 2010 ' 12:58:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Every time when I think about it, the more I find that it was all my fault.The more I try to figure out why it all happened, the more confused I get.But one thing is for sure.If only I had not done what I had done that day.Maybe all of these would not be happening.If only I did not open my big mouth and invited him to come along with me.Then maybe things would have turned out better.If only I could foresee what might have happened, I swear I would never had done it.What hurts the most is seeing people all around me giving off either an angry feeling or a sad feeling.It really makes me feel so useless.Makes me feel like there is nothing I can do to solve all these problems.And that really makes me feel very insignificant.Xiao mei, here is your promised post =)Not too sure about what to write too.So I'll just give you some advice.Learn to loosen up.You are now in poly, not JC anymore.Learn to have fun.Learn to be happy.Learn to just go with the flow.And most importantly, learn to befriend others regardless or age.Once you are able to do all that, you won't feel so left out.Won't feel like you are different.And also do not make the same mistake that I did.I did not realized how important it is to be bonded to my class.And now I guess I am regretting it.For in poly, classmates are one of the most important friends that you have.Without them, I can tell you.You are a goner.Classmates in poly aren't just for you to talk to in school.They are so much more then that.They are the ones who will help you out when you are in need.They are the ones who will be with you for the next three years in your school life.So do not outcast yourself, or let yourself be boycotted.You will totally regret it.Well.No use thinking too much about what is already done.Since there is no way to reverse it.Just gotta learn to let go of these feelings that I have.Just gotta learn to forgive myself for what I have done.I really hate life...Always doing things without thinking.Always making mistakes.Always hurting others without realizing.And yet...Sometimes I wonder.Would things be better without me?
.Saturday, April 24, 2010 ' 8:35:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Went out for Karaoke today.Had loads of fun.But ended up feeling very shagged.For some reason, both my legs suddenly felt so damn weak.Every step I take, though it did not hurt, felt really weird.It felt as though both my legs are not there.And apparently, only my lower legs were affected.Maybe it's caused by me not eating.Or maybe it's not.Really do not know the cause of this phenomenal.Well, went home way earlier then expected.Really not used to it.Well, might be resting early today.So for today that's about it.P.S: Paiseh mei. Today no time to put up your post. Sorry. Another time bahs.
.Monday, April 19, 2010 ' 4:30:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Man...Got a totally new haircut yesterday...All my hair is gone... OMG man...Damn shag...Went with Freston and Daemian to Elias Mall to cut hair...Actually only wan shape...End up kena Psycho to cut...Behind Overlap V...In front Malet (Donno how to spell xD)Top so damn short...Haiz...Gone...ALL GONE!!!Well...Too late for regrets liao...Gotta live with it...Today marks the start of the new semester...And also more new faces in school...As the new batch of year ones are in...Managed to see some of my juniors in school today Hahas...Shiok sia...xDAlso lots of pretty people =XWahahahaha!!! Jokes...Shall upload my new haircut when I'm feeling less lazy xDSo till next time =)
.Saturday, April 17, 2010 ' 1:48:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Why does my heart ache from time to time...And no...It is not because of the old problem...Apparently it is cause of a new one...Which I myself ain't too sure of what it is...Why does it hurt so much all over again...When I am right there...Right in front of you...And yet...I am transparent...One problem after another...Really can't take it...One heartache after another...Really feel like dying...One mistake after another...Really wished that all could be undone...And one person after another...Really don't wanna feel hurt again...Will you be able to let everything go?Will you be able to forget the past?Will you be able to forgive the unforgiven?Will you be able to...
.Sunday, April 11, 2010 ' 2:35:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Firstly... Happy birthday Carmen xDSixteen liaos... Must wisen up hors xDDon't do stupid stuff and get into trouble hors... And must stay happy =)Suppose to ton today...But in the end...Never...Suppose to drink today...But also...Ended up not drinking...Sad sia...Haiz...Why...Why must like that...Super OMG man...So damn shag...
.Tuesday, April 6, 2010 ' 1:03:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Been so long since I had this much fun...So much have happened...Some good...Some bad...But mostly good...I think =XWell...Firstly...I FINALLY GOT AN ITOUCH!!!YEA MAN!!!
It's like so cool!!!Wahahahahahahas~Another thing is that I guess I am already moving on...Already able to accept the facts...Already leaving the past behind...And now it is time to move on...Since it is already past 12am...This means that it is already the next day...And hence...It means that I had a really fun day yesterday =DNever expected that it would be this fun =)Did lots of random things...And lots of unexpected things...Went to arcade...Went to buy movie tickets...Then went back to arcade again hahas...Followed by watching the movie...The show was 'Clash Of The Titans'The movie part was really last minute...Just suddenly felt like watching movie hahas =DWell...Going off soon...Bye byes =)And thank you very much for making yesterday really great =)
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Name: Cedric Siah Yi
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