CSYsiansation

.Wednesday, March 31, 2010 ' 4:47:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Hahas...
Last night was a joke...
My brother told me what happened when I was asleep last night...
And this was how it went...

*Cedric raise his hands and moving them in circles and made some noise*
*Brother wakes up*
Brother: Cedric... Cedric... Cedric...
Cedric: Huh?
Brother: What you doing?
Cedric: Da jiao che (Said very softly and unclearly)
Brother: Huh?
Cedric: Da jiao che (Sightly louder but still unclear)
Brother: Huh?
Cedric: Da jiao che!!! (Slightly louder then previous two but still slightly unclear)
Brother: Doing what?
Cedric Riding bicycle!
Brother: Then who are you?
Cedric: Cedric Siah...
Brother: Then who am I?
Cedric: Your mother...
Brother: Fuck you... (Goes back to sleep)

*After awhile*
Brother: Cedric
Cedric: (No reply)
Brother: (Goes back to sleep)

LOLs...
Joke sia...
Best thing was...
I DIDN'T KNOW I SAID THOSE!!!
WAHAHAHAHA...
Jia lat liao sia...
Hope next time won't sleep walk...
If not lagi more jia lat...
Hahas...

.Thursday, March 25, 2010 ' 6:36:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

All the best...
And good luck...
Last long...
And stay happy...
These are my final wishes for you...
No matter what happens...
I will always be here for you when you need me...
I will always be here to give you a listening ear when you need it...
And will always be waiting...

.Wednesday, March 24, 2010 ' 2:10:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Wahahahaha...
Did the world's most unpredictable thing...
Connect back with my long lost friends!!!
OMG!!!
Wahahaha...
Quite fun sia...
Lmaos =.=
I am so losing it xD
Too damn happy that the other person replied me...
Wahahaha
OMG...
Ok...
I think I'll stop here...
Before I start spamming how crazy and happy I am now =X

.Tuesday, March 23, 2010 ' 11:08:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Wo ke yi ren shou ni bu yao sms wo...
Wo ke yi ren shou ni bu yao da gei wo...
Dan bu neng ren shou ni duai wo hen leng tai...
Hahas... xD
I am so lame...
Bored to this extent...
OMG...
Really wonder why I think so much...
Wondering why did you change so much...
Or maybe it was I who changed...
Changed into someone who you no longer recognize...
Someone who you now see in a different light...
Someone who will never be able to make you happy anymore...
Someone who is so stupid...
Someone like me...

.Sunday, March 21, 2010 ' 3:17:00 AM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

The way I am now is all caused by me...
Solely me and no one else...
I am the one at fault here...
I chose to be this way...
I chose to love you...
And if I am feeling depressed...
You are not at fault...
For it is I who chose to love you...
Someone who will never be able to love me back...
Someone who will choose someone else over me...
Someone who I will never forget...
Someone who I will love without any regrets or demands...
Someone who I will want to always stay happy...
Even at the cost of me being unhappy...
If you are happier being with someone else...
Then so be it...
If you are happy...
I will be happy for you...

.Friday, March 19, 2010 ' 10:23:00 AM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Sometimes taking a step back will result in peace...
This is a fact that I have known for a long time...
And have always been doing it...
It's also known as giving in...
But for certain things...
Once you give in...
It means you have lost it...
I duwana lose anything...
But I don't think I have a choice anymore...
So I guess this is it then...
Good bye...

How I hoped for...
Hoped for wishes to come true...
Hoped for the impossible to become possible...
Hoped to be able to hear your voice...
Feel your touch...
Feel your warmth...
And for you to see that I'm always here when you need me...

.Wednesday, March 17, 2010 ' 11:18:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Wedding Dress
Korean translation
nega geuwa datugo ttaeron geuttaeme ulgo
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
amudo moreuge mam a a apeugo
ne jageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo
nega hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
nan sumeul jugyeo
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my lady
oraen sigan gidaryeoon nal dorabwajwo
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
oneuri ojiankireul geureoke na maeilbam gidohaenneunde

nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
(Girl)nega ibeun wedingdeureseu(naega anijanha)
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
oh nega ibeun wedingdeureseu oh no
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
nega neomu miwoseo
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
nan nuneul gamakkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my lady
oraen sigan gidaryeoon nal dorabwajwo

noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
oneuri ojiankireul geureoke na maeilbam gidohaenneunde

nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
(Girl)nega ibeun wedingdeureseu(naega anijanha)
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
oh nega ibeun wedingdeureseu oh no

budi geuwa haengbokhae
neoreul ijeul su itge
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
birok handonganeun na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nalbogo sae hayake utgoinneunde
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
oh no(Girl)nega ibeun wedingdeureseu(dress dress)
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
oh nega ibeun wedingdeureseu oh no

English Translation
I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my Lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.
Once the music ends,you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come

The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

Oh~ no

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
Now I am talking to myself, it must be an old habbit
Every night, I would look at myself
And wonder how it turned out like this
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave him

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my Lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.
Once the music ends you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come

The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

Oh~ no

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

Once the music ends you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

.Saturday, March 13, 2010 ' 10:51:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Made too many mistakes in the past...
And now it's time to make up for all of them...
But how...
One problem appears after another...
When one is solved, another is created...
Just when will it all stop...
Haiz...
And now I'm being locked up at home...
And it's driving me nuts...
Unable to leave the house...
Unable to meet my friends...
And the worst is not being able to see her...
It's really drive me up the wall...
Might end up in IMH soon...
Haiz...

.Sunday, March 7, 2010 ' 2:38:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Today is the day where she left for Malaysia...
Gonna miss her...
Didn't get to see her for long yesterday...
Cause she said she had tuition...
And also because she did not reply my smses...
And that made me think that she doesn't want to talk or see me yesterday...
That really had a huge impact on me...
Because she met up with others that day...
Though I guess it was not her idea...
Well...
Who cares...
She is free to do what she wants...
I can't stop her...
For she is not mine...
So no point being upset over it...
Finally learning how to accept things as they are...

Labels: Darling I love you

.Saturday, March 6, 2010 ' 10:32:00 AM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Everyone has their own problems...
Problems that only they can solve...
They can seek help from others...
But ultimately...
They are the only ones who can solve it...
And no one else can...
Others can only give advices or guide them...
But they cannot solve the problem for you...
Why do I know all these...
But can't execute them...
Like they say...
It is easier said then done...

Why is loving someone so difficult...
Why is it so painful...
Always thinking of you...
Missing you...
But when I tell you I miss you...
You retaliate with I don't like people to say all these to me...
Now when I try to get near you...
You either push me away or avoid me...
Back in the past you would not have mind...
But now...
It really makes me confused...
Feeling so lost now...
Don't know what to do anymore...
But I still know one thing...
I still love you...

Labels: Darling I love you

.Tuesday, March 2, 2010 ' 11:44:00 PM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Today, the 2nd of march...
The day that I was born...
Also known as...
My birthday xD...
Hahas...
Well...
Dint really enjoyed the first part of the day...
For it felt like I was really wasting a lot of time...
And also due to the freaking hot weather...
Damn the Singapore weather...
But later in the day...
Had much more fun...
Had dinner with my Father...
And went drinking at a nearby pub...
Since my mood wasn't really that good...
Drank quite a handful...
Though I'm not drunk yet...
Feeling super tired...
So gonna go to sleep soon...
Nites...