.Friday, January 29, 2010 ' 11:07:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Today was a day filled with mixed feelings...Happiness...Then sadness...Then frustration...Followed by sadness again...Then loneliness...And finally happiness again...But that happiness was short-lived...As usual...And like all other days...Today ended with me getting upset as usual...It seems that some things just won't change...No matter how hard I try...My efforts are always in vain...Sometimes I really feel like just giving everything up...But when I do...I will regret...I don't want to regret anything...So I shall stay strong and continue to wait...Continue to wait and hope that one day you will see...See that I had always been there...Caring for you...Supporting you...Loving you...Labels: Darling I love you
. ' 12:01:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Cried like hell just now...Not too sure why too...Thought that by doing what I did then could make me happier...But it turned out otherwise...I knew something was wrong...So I called my brother to accompany me...Little did I know that I would cry everything out...I remembered asking my brother why I cried...And I kept repeating it over and over again...That was round one...When I thought that I would not cry anymore...I went back to the others...And I kept saying I did not know why I cried like that...Then I they told me...I had too much "Fan Nao"...And I sort of agreed to it...I then played the song I sent to you...The song that you said reminded you of your ex...And upon hearing it...I cried again for the second time...Though it was not as bad as the first one...It was still very bad...Really sorry...Sorry to everyone that was there...Sorry to my brothers...Sorry to my friends...And especially sorry to my darling...I really did not expect this to happen at all...And because of me everyone went home late...Really sorry to everyone...And also...Thank you everyone...For being there for me...For being there to calm me down...For being there when I needed you the most...Hope that this would not happen again...The reason for me acting like I did might be because of a few things...But I am not too sure of the reasons myself...But I think that it might be because of all the sadness I felt being bottled up...There are lots of unhappiness which I want to say but can't...And even if I did say them out...Nothing changed...Everything always revert to the way they were the very next day...No matter what I do...Everything seems to be in vain...Labels: Darling I love you
.Monday, January 25, 2010 ' 10:39:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
I do not care about your past...Your past has nothing to do with me...I love you for who you are...Not what you have done...I do not care what others might say or think about you...For it is you I love not them...Their opinions on you means nothing to me...I will believe what I see and what I hear only from you...No one will be able to change that...I might get upset at first...But I will get over it...The truth is always shocking...But the shock will never last forever...No matter how long it takes...I will wait for you...I just hope that you will realise that I am always there for you...As you said...Being your darling is forever...I hope that it's true...But I just can't stand thinking that you might like someone else...And compared to SOME people...We don't seem to be as close...I know that the gap between being your darling and being your stead is huge...But I still wish to close up that gap until I can truely be together with you...I want to get closer to you...I want to get to understand you better...I want to love you better...Labels: Darling I love you
.Wednesday, January 20, 2010 ' 12:40:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
What are dreams?
Are dreams just images of the heart?
Or are they things that might happen in the near future to come?
Then what are nightmares?
Images of things that you are most afraid of?
Or hallucinations caused by the sub-concious?
I had a dream last night...Something that I really wish would happen...A dream that was quite real to me...And yet so unreal...Dreamt of something that would never happen... But just being able to dream about it made me happy..If only reality was like a dream...How good would that be....Labels: Darling I love you
.Wednesday, January 13, 2010 ' 11:05:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Man...
Really in loads of shit...
Haven't been going to school lately...
My lecturers have been looking for me...
And now they even tagged on my tagbox...
Lecturers and classmates, don't get me wrong...
It's not that I don't like it...
It's just that it surprised me that's all...
Been really depressed lately...You really seem to love to lie to me...Now I don't even know if I can trust any words you say anymore...You keep telling me that it's the last time...But everyday there will always be one more last time...I am really sick and tired of hearing it anymore...I told you that I don't care about it anymore...But I still do...When I say ok... Go do it...Deep in my heart I really wanted to say no...But I can't do it...I am still just a friend to you...I have no rights to stop you or anything...I can only advise you...It was just today...It is really one of the saddest days of my life...I felt completely crushed by the things that you did...Really donno why you want to do it so much...Haiz...Labels: Darling I love you
.Sunday, January 10, 2010 ' 11:12:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Well... Haven't been blogging for the past few days...
Lots of things happened...
But can't really say them out...
Mostly non-school related...
As always...
Getting myself into trouble and deep shit...
Getting myself depressed and fustrated...
Getting worried over the people that are close to me...
I know that you might not be able to see this...But if you ever do...This part is meant for you...I will always be there for you...Always be looking over you...Although your promises to me are never kept...But I don't really care...All I want is for you to be happy and know what you are doing...If what you are doing now is wad you really enjoy and want to continue then I will not stop you...But as you know it is not good...So I will be there to help you kick that habit...If that is what you want...I will never leave you...Unless you want me to...I love you...Labels: Darling I love you
.Monday, January 4, 2010 ' 10:16:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Man... Damn shag...
Apparently din't come back really late today...
So cool...
Lmaos...
First day of school for 2010...
No difference for me...
Cuz... Well... Its not the start of a new school term that's why...
How I wish I was back in secondary school...
Back then today would have been the first day of school for the level that you are in...
Well... Then again...
I am so gonna love this year!!!
3 more months before I'm 18!!!
WOOO!!!
Time to prepare for my motorbike license xD
Wahahahaha...
Really cant wait for it...
Went to find you today at your school...Before your school started you said that you were afraid...But I was unable to do anything...I was no where near you...All I wanted to do was to be next to you and tell you that everything would be ok...And in the end, you left the school looking rather happy...When you told me you missed you ex...I felt real depressed...And when you went to find your friend...The one who liked you for over 2 years, I felt worst...That was why I acted that way...I really wanna tell you that I like you...But now's just not the time...I duwanna to end up having people talking behind your back saying that you are a flirt...This is one of the main reasons why I can't tell you what I really wanna say now...All I wanna do now is to be with you everyday...The way things are...We are just like an unofficial couple...Just waiting for the right time to make it official...Really hope that the time will come before everything falls apart...Labels: Darling I love you
. ' 12:12:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Man... Late for 2010 new year greeting by 4 days WAHAHAHAHAS...
OMG man...
Well...
Too bad xD
Happy new year!!!
Hahas...
Hope that this year will be a better year then last year...
Last year really sucked...
Except for the part where I got to get to know new friends xD
Well...
Really screwed up last year...
My studies is now like shit...
Donno how I'm gonna pick everything up within this next 2 to 3 weeks...
If I dun do so...
Hoho...
Jia lat liaos...
Can say GG to me...
Found someone else...Someone much better then the previous one...Someone whom I never expected to end up liking...It all started just by acting out a show...But now... It's getting more and more real...Don't know if she will like me back...All I know is that when I like someone, I will want them to be happy...No matter what... But I won't give up on her...Not like how I gave up on the other one...This time I will make sure I do my best...And if it doesn't succeed...I just hope that the one she chose will love her more then me...Labels: Darling I love you
