Well had nothing better to do...
So I decided to change my blogskin...

Trying not to talk to her...
Maybe then I might be able to stop thinking of her...
But apparently it did not work...
She is always on my mind...
I even wrote her name on a window panel near my table...
(Shifted place from one end of the class to the other...Idea from Mr Lim Cheng Yang)

Ain't sure what i should do...
She does not seem to like me...
But yet I feel that she does...
Her friends tell me not to give up...
But my friends tell me otherwise...

Quite confused...
Rather Blurred out...
When I see her...Can't stop myself from looking at her...
And yet I do not dare to look into her eyes...

My friend told me that she likes someone...
Another told me someone else likes her...
Don't know what I should do...
Should I continue to chase her?
Or should I give her up?

Sometimes I wished i did not like her...
The pain of a heart split into two halves hurt too much...
Don't think I can hold on much longer...
Feeling that I am losing it...
What should I do?
Can someone tell me?

I am acting as if nothing has happened...
But some things can't be hidden forever...
So lost...So confused...So hurt...So sad...

Phew...What a long day...Came back at around 9pm today...
Morning went to school...Extra math class till about 3.30pm...
Went for tuition at 4.30pm...Tuition ended at 6pm...
Headed to Loyang Point to meet up with some friends...Had dinner...Talked awhile then went home...Everything ended at around 9pm...Long long day haha...

Well...Ms Chiong said that i was dreaming during class...
Then my class suddenly said her name...
Was like huh?
What's going on?
HahaZ

Well really was rather dreamy today...Ain't sure why either...
Nothing much to say about today...
Just another ordinary day i guess...
Well... got to go...
See yea...

Still can't forget her haha...

Ok.. The title is abit the lame that i have to agree...But can't think of anymore titles...Haha

Well had a good scolding from Mr Lim because of JASON!!!
His message was not clear...
He told the class that there was no physics remedial and so I left...
Then today he asked why i was not there for remedial and i told him what Jason told me...Managed to get away without punishment WAHAHAHAHA...

After that kena another round of scolding from Mrs Chew...
Just because SOME PEOPLE did not do their work...
Punishment was to sit on the floor and do the homework...
Lasted for two whole period...

After that had R.E.P test...
So today had a total of two tests...
Chinese and R.E.P test...

After school had to stay back for CCA...
Today had a combined rehersal for Commendation Day...
And guess what...
I am not in the GoH...
I am the PACER...Whatever that is...

On the actual day if there is more or less then 33 GoH members, i will officially be the PACER!!!
So...I might not be in the GoH...Haha...Wonder if it is good or bad...HaHa....
Well had nothing much to do today...Pacer is rather boring =_= ...

Well after everything ended...I was at the back of the Canteen doing some push-ups and pull-ups with the Part A and Part B cadets...That was when i saw her...
After that when we were going to get dismissed...
Some of the Part B kept Laughing...And Senior kept knocking us down...
So she and her friends were like laughing...
We kept recovering and going back to push-up position...
Was rather funny that i have to admit...
After they were dismissed...Played awhile with the Mk 5 and Mk 4 rifles...
Seems that i am the one always incharge of looking after the rifles...

Then she left...I decided to leave too...
But was too late to catch up to her...
Took too long to change back to my school uniform...
Well...
Have to wait till next combined rehersal...Haha...
The longer i wait to more pain i feel...
But time is the only thing that can give me the answer...
Man...What am i going to do...
When will all these pain go away?
Haiz...

Omg...
Something happened today...
It all started with a classmate of mine asking me to go to church today...
His name was Jun Wei...
Well...I agreed to go to church with him...
But i did not know that i would become a half christian!!!

It was unexpected...
Today is Easter Day...
The day Jesus Resurrected...
The day death died...
And also the day i became a half christian...

Well I met new friends today...
Some were from GvSs...
Was rather stunned myself when i realised i was now a half Christian...
Haha...

Too much problems...
Still thinking of her...
Already emo...
Can't stop thinking of her...
My mind keeps wondering off when i am free...
And she is always on my mind...
haiz...Still heart broken...

Man...Had too much free time today...
Kept thinking about her...
Kept having the urge to talk to her...
But do not know what to say...
Keep having a feeling that she thinks that i am irritating...
Don't know why...

Well anywayz...I have my own room now!
But the computer still stays in my old room...
Only have one internet access area...Other then wireless...

Well...Went out with father like always...
Had Badminton training...
Then after that went to Marine Parade...
Had dinner...Felt tired and Dad sent my bro and I home...

During the whole outing...
I kept thinking of her...
Think i am going to be emo soon...(or maybe already emo)
Haiz...Is there no cure to this pain?
When will all these painful wounds heal?
Why does time move so slowly...
Haiz...Really heart broken...

NO RULE #1!!!!
Went out today with friends to watch the show called rule #1 but some of us were not 16 yet so they did not allow us to enter...
So we ended up not watching NO RULE #1!!!!

After that went to Down Town East to meet Jasmine and Gang...
Played at the arcade and saw Marven and "Dennis De DiDi"(HaoYi)
Could not remember HaoYi's name so called him Dennis De DiDi the whole time haha...
Then he said that his name is Dennis...Sername is De...Chinese name is DiDi...LoLz...

Then went to eat dinner at Burger King...
After Dinner...Walked home with my twin...Briana...Da Jie...YingYing and extra...JORDAN(jking XD)

Then Ying and Jordan split from us at White Sands to collect Jordan's bike...
Walked on with twin until the road to my house...Then we split...

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Well...What a long day today...Had E-math extra lessons...Then had tuition A-math...
MAN so much math!!!Can't take it!!!
Haiz...
Then when i reached home...Mother asked if I wanted to watch movie...Since I had not much time left...Why not?...Agreed to watch movie
Show name is Vantage Point
Hmm i think i have watched about 5 movies this year...
One show is about $8...So total is about...$40 spent on movies this year...Wow what a sum...

Well still can't forget her...
Don't know why...
Thinking of giving it one more chance...
But the problem is that she is Christian!!!
And according to the Bible...Christians are only allowed to have relationship with Christians only...(or something like that...Someone told me so...But i do not know if it is true...)
Well...
I don't know...
Maybe i will just try my luck...Test water...
Maybe it will work out...Who knows...
Haiz...

Well...
Guess what...!
I was sent out of class until recess! cool ain't it?
Well not just me...
Was accompanied by Bernie...Ming Yang...Jun Wei...Kenze...Kenric
Well...We were sent out because 1) No file 2)Got file but no notes 3)Mr Lim don't like you...
well we were all like asked to sit down outside the Bio lab for the whole day...
But Mr Lim was kind enough to let us go after recess...

Had chemistry test after school... I must say that the test was not easy...And very long!!!
After that had Ncc GoH training...Had to teach the whole GoH the new salute with rifle command...
After that my Sir...(CLT Chan Fann Howe) asked me to take over the sec 2 (part B) but Firdaus wanted to take over MY PLATOON!!!!
I was like...Go back to your own platoon lah! This my platoon! Somemore you not in Ncc Uniform...
But he was like...Aiya nvm lah...I donno the drills that they are doing...You know, you go take them lah...

Then i was like no choice but my sir asked me to follow the part B and we took turns to command them...So things sort of worked out...

Then left at 5.30pm...Went for tuition...Ended at 7.30pm...Went to Grandparents house...Had dinner...Then went home...

Nothing much...So Sianz...
Haiz

Well... Nothing much happened...
Got back chinese Mock test...
I failed...As expected...The best part was i got 8/70 for paper II cool isn't it?
Well i left 2 pages blank... what do you expect??
LOL haha i have really lost it...

Today...
Is the start of term II
How fun...
Well...Made something Cool/Lame after chemisty practical
A test tube filled with all sorts of things!
Like Hydrochloric acid, sodium salphate and calcium carbonate and more...



Well... Still feeling depressed...
Not easy recovering from such a huge shock...
Haiz...Still love her so...
Haiz...Losing my mind...
HAIZ...

Today had Commendation Day practice...
And guess what...I injured my left ankle...Can't wear my Ncc boots...So no training for me today...But i ended up having to look after the spare rifles...
Well slacked from about 9pm till about 12pm...How fun...
Anyways...ALl the Uniformed groups had to attend the rehersal...And i saw her again
Still can't forget...
Still damn stone...
But one thing i am certain is that
I will not give her up so easily...
But i do not know how to win her heart...
How sad...
Need help...
Damn Depressed...
Too much to worry about...
School is starting soon...
Homework still not complete...
Haiz...
Well...
I WILL NOT GIVE HER UP SO EASILY!!!
I WILL CONTINUE TO CHASE HER!!!

Went for a Guild outing today...
The guild is for Maple Story...
Guild name is Aegis Clan
Guild leader is none other then... Ying Ying!
Total of nine people went for the outing
Outing consisted of two parts...
First is Ice Skating
Second is Movie
Eight of us went for Ice Skating while one more came for the movie
Had an enjoyable day...
But i still cannot forget what happened yesterday...
Those words...
The message...
It is still fresh in my mind...
Now i am feeling damn stone like yesterday...
Can't seem to get over the fact that i was kind of rejected...
It is very saddening...
I wonder if i would have a second chance...
Well... Only time will tell...
Hope that what she meant is not completely true...
Haiz...

Today...Is the saddest day of my life ( I think...)
The day when i got the answer to the big question...
Whether she likes me or not...
And her answer was...
"I guess I just see you as a friend..."
Well with this statment said...
IT IS OVER!!!
No more hoping...No more praying...No need for God's blessings...
So lost...
So confused...
Want to cry but no tears flow...
Feeling damn stoned...
I think i am going to lose it soon...

Haiz...Do not know what to do now...
So lost and confused and rather stoned now
I think i am going to become a emo soon...
Haiz...

Well...
Today went to school...
Had some things to settle...
Then tried to ask her to meet me at school...
But her parents too strict...
Dont let her out...

Then later in the night at around 7pm Plus Plus
Went to Bugis Junction to watch a show called 10,000 BC
Not too bad though
But the problem is...
How can the people back then speack english?
That puzzled me...

Got some good news and some bad news...
SHE FINALLY REPLIED ME...
BUT...
It is not about the question i asked...
It was another thing...
When i tried to ask again... I got ignored again...
Haiz...So sad...Don't really know if what i am doing is right or wrong...
Only time will tell...

Last But not least!!
SIANZ

Man Today sucked...
She still have'nt reply me...
I tried to call her but she did not answer her phone...
I think she is having a camp or something like this...
But it is not likey...
Haiz...Sianz...

Well... Had chinese Mock Exams this morning until about 12pm then had lunch with friends...

Nothing much happened...
And i am still waiting...
Having i feeling that it is over...
But only time will tell...
Hope she says yes...

SIANZ

Well i am still waiting for the reply...
Having a feeling that i will be rejected...
But anyways...
I should look on the bright side! Maybe her parents took away her phone and she cannnot see the message or something along this line...
Well all i can do is hope!

So... I was bored...
So i went to see this video


Quite nice song From Jay Chou's new album the name of the song is Cai Hong/Rainbow
Hope you guys enjoy this Music Video...
Last but not least... my favourite word!
SIANZ

Oh My God!!!
I cannot believe what i just did today!
I actually confessed and asked the person i like to be my girlfriend!!!

But... it has been a long time and she still has not replied me...
I am so lost...
Do not know if she likes me anyways...
It might be a one-sided love...
Who knows...
Only time will tell...

Well...Wish me good luck!

and last but not least...
SIANZ

Sianz today got PTC (Parent Teacher Conference)
Both Father and Mother went...
Had a speech from Principal (Mr Koh)
Then talked to Ms Chiong (E-Math teacher)
Got back report book...

SIANZ

Went out for dinner with Mother and Father
F.Y.I : Parents are divorced

SIANZ

Now damn sian...
Empty feeling getting stronger...
Gonna lose it soon...

I am so confused...
So lost...
This feeling...
It hurts so much...
Feeling so empty inside...
I do not know why...

I think it is because of her...
Everytime i pass by her...
I will always look at her...
When i talk to her...
I always send funny remarks...

The day i started messaging her...
I felt nothing
But as i kept on messaging...
My feelings towards her grew fonder and fonder...

I do not know what to do...
I am too lost and confuse to make sense of anything...

Today damn sian
No pictures to show or take because whole day in school
So sian lor
study study study....
Can die leh!!
SIAN TO DEATH

Sian sian sian!




Today GVSS CIP




Visited some elderly




My group finished visiting three houses in about the max 30 minutes...
After CIP ended went to Lan Shop with Friends (Joel, Ren Hao, Jordan, Bryon, Jian Guang)
Won them in DotA
Went to Tampines Mall and saw Jason (4E4 one)
After that met Ying x2 at Level 4 of TP




Watched movie called [Leap years]




Show was not bad
had dinner at century Square and made this










Cool hor?
HeHe
After that went home...
But going out for 12 am show so...
BYE BYE

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Name: Cedric Siah Yi
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