Well... Its all over liaos... Cried the whole night... Emo the whole of today... Everything I've done today was so zombie like... Trying to fake a smile... But can't seem to do it now... It seems to be tougher to fake a smile now then usual... The always hyper-active me has seemed to die down for now... All my walls have fallen... All that is left is the me that I do not let people see... The helpless side of me... The side that is always emotional... The side i hate to show... I usually do not show emotions... I am afraid of my emotions... Not all... But some... Now they are all showing... And I don't think I can keep them locked away any longer...
.Thursday, May 28, 2009 ' 9:31:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
A note to myself... 1)Useless 2)Worthless 3)Hopeless 4)A total moron 5)Small 6)Weak 7)Timid 8)Act tough but useless on the inside 9)Screwed up life 10)Cursed for life
~well... ~Its all over liaos...
.Wednesday, May 27, 2009 ' 10:46:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Today damn sian... Super super bored... Bored till cannot bored anymore... Haiz... Play comp until super sian... SO DAMN BORED!!! ~Just 1 more day... ~Can't wait...
.Monday, May 25, 2009 ' 9:19:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Today... Woke up to go to school... But fell sick... So ended up not going... Went to see doctor later in the night... 30 bucks just to see the damn doctor... Robbery sial... Haiz... Now at home... Resting... Hope tmr won't sick... HAIZ...
~Soon... ~real soon now...
.Friday, May 22, 2009 ' 9:51:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Haiz... Suppose to go to school today... But woke up late... So ended up not going... Wanted to find my bro... But another fren told me they are already going back soon... So ended up not going... again... Wanted to find someone... But then that person already left for home... So also ended up not going... HAIz... So sians... And just found out that the TV more important then me... HAIZ... So now emo-ing at a corner of my room... Haiz... Well... Going back to emo-ing nows... HAIZ!!!
~6 more days... ~Soon... ~But not yet...
.Thursday, May 21, 2009 ' 10:23:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Wanted to go school at 1pm and end school at 2pm... But fren called me and ask me go for class... Haiz... So just go... Then after school went to Sim Lim Square... Walked around the whole god damn building... Just to collect some price lists... Retarded sia... Then went to bugis... Walk abit then go off liaos... Went home... Fren called me out... So left house like zombie like that... Then kena bully... HAIZ... After that bro ask me meet him at home... Then go back WS for dinner... WAH SO SIAN... WALK SO MUCH!!! Haiz... After that went home... Scratch till face bled... Then found out my ear got cut... Retarded sia... No wonder my ear so pain when i touch it... Haiz...
~1 more week... ~Hope that time will fly faster...
.Tuesday, May 19, 2009 ' 8:42:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
SUPER STRESS!!! OMG!!! EVEN FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME CAN TIO STRESS!?!!! OMG!!! JIA LAT LIAO!!!
So many projects... So much homework... So many people rushing me... Jia lat lahs... So much things to do... So little time... Jia lat liaos... Haiz... Tmr after class still need chiong to Sim Lim to do research... Haiz... Suddenly so many thing popping out... HAIZ!!!
.Saturday, May 16, 2009 ' 12:30:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Life is just so sian... Super boring... Play games sian... Go school sian... Working sian... Do homework sian... Go out sian... Everything also sian... Haiz... Sian jiu shi sian... Esp today... Feeling super super sian... Also donno why... Play comp like wanna die like tat... Go out super tired... Do thing also ai si ai wa like tat... Haiz...
.Thursday, May 14, 2009 ' 10:03:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
So sian... Go school for 3 hrs... Do nothing but waste time... Crap sial... Donno what stress relief talk... Then I din't go LOL... Wasted so much of my time away... Did CARC project... Not perfect... And not complete... Still a long way to go... Super sian... Haiz...
.Friday, May 8, 2009 ' 4:51:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Today... Din't go to school... Why waste time going to school for 2 hrs... Lols... finished 2 tutorials for next week... Left a few more and I'm done... But next comes the projects... Sians... Haiz... Met my frens today... Then did work... And then went home... Lols... Lmaos...
.Sunday, May 3, 2009 ' 12:08:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Let's see what happened yesterday... Woke up... Super sian... Play comp... Wanna die... Then go eat lunch... Super full... Go cut hair... Alot of hair drop sia... And my hair is the only different color hair on floor... LOLS...
After that went home... Bro's fren was here... They doing art project... Then played comp... Super super sian... Then mum came home... Scold here scold there... Super fucked up... Left house... She scold somemore... Even more fucked up... Take bike... Cycle to meet fren... Then went to pasir ris park... Cycle till super tired... Ass also damn pain... Leg crap up... Everywhere also pain...
Then go home again... Lock bike up... Then walked to Elias mall for dinner with bigger group of frens... After dinner... Walked back home... Talk somemore... Talked alot... Talked even more... Talked super alot... Play comp also alot... Sian feeling also alot... Then later me and my fren named Freston super smart... We walked to White Sands... Then later got stuck there... It was at about 2.30am plus plus... Then cant go home... Go lightning watching... Here is the video...
So we waited like morons... We even sang songs... Worst thing was, a police car drove by... We thought "Die liao... Sure tio screen..." Then we hide our stuff on top of the bus stop there... But the fucking car turned in... Wasted... Lols... After that went home... Then send another fren off... After that me and Freston decided to sleep... But we ended up talking from about 3am till 5am... Super wtf... So fast time fly... LOLs...
.Friday, May 1, 2009 ' 10:58:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥ I love you so much
Wah... 2 weeks are gone just like tat... So fast sia... Omg... Well did nothing much this whole week... Except for one thing... Aint gonna say it =P Its for me to know and for you to find out XD
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