.Tuesday, July 28, 2009 ' 10:24:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
I feel like I am being used...
All my life I have been taken advantage of...
Always being used...
Always going thing for others...
And nothing for myself...
All I've been doing is try to make others happier...
And not caring about myself...
Maybe that's just who I am...
Just too easy to bully...
Maybe that's why all these happened...
All because I am who I am...
Or is it not?
.Saturday, July 25, 2009 ' 6:33:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
I've been such a fool...
Been doing so much stupid things...
Been living in lies...
All my life I've been lied to...
Everything...
Everything anyone have told me were just lies...
None of them true...
No one to trust no more...
Why...
Why me?
What have I done to deserve all this?
Did I ever offended you?
Did I ever do something wrong to you?
If not then why me...
Why all this suffering and pain...
Why...
really want to know...
.Wednesday, July 22, 2009 ' 4:39:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Ok... I've had it...I've have more then enough of it...This is the final time...I am never going though this again...This I promise myself...No more getting hurt...No more falling down...No more starting all over again...This is it...
.Saturday, July 18, 2009 ' 12:28:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
There is so much I wanna do...So much I wanna say...But I am never given the chance...I am always interrupted...I am always hesitant...I am always afraid...I never liked taking risks...It is not cause I am scared...I just dun wanna take the chance...Even though sometimes it is a win win situation...I am afraid to make the wrong choices...Cause the consequences are always very dire...But now...I am going to take this risk...I don't know what will happen...So I won't know the risk...So here goes...No matter what happens...I will always be there for you...We dun have to be together for me to make sure that you are never sad...If there is still a chance...Tell me if you want...if you dun wanna tell me its ok...I'll wait for you...I made a promise to you...And I will keep it...No matter what...I still love you...I donno wad to do without you...
.Saturday, July 11, 2009 ' 11:40:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
I hate my life...
Really hate it so much...
Sometimes really feel like dying...
Once sat on top the 12th story edge...
Almost did it...
But didn't...
Really wonder why I din't do it...
My two best friends are depression and loneliness...My stalker is bad luck...My enemy is emotions...My life is filled with nothing but trouble and boredom...Destined to be lonely forever...Don't really care...If it is such...Then so be it...I am already alone...I had always been alone...And will forever be alone...Unless things change...What about depression?Had been depressed since sec 4...After my first broke up with me...That was when I knew what depression was...And ever since then...I've been real depressed...And extremely depressed when something bad happens...I don't show all these out...Some people might think that I am weakSome might sympathise me...But overall...I hate to show emotions...Really really hate it...I might look real relaxed...But I'm not really...I am so damn stressed up...Really find it hard to cope anymore...Too many things are happening at once...Cant really take it...Might end up going insane soon...Or really jumping down this time...I really hope that my nightmare would just end...And that everything will become better somehow...
.Thursday, July 2, 2009 ' 11:24:00 PM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
Wah...
Today damn tired...
Freaking cab fare 20 bucks!!!
Eat money sia taxi...
Faggot lehs...
Haiz...
What to do...
Too lazy to take bus...
So take cab lors...
LOLs...
Crap sia me...
Retarded to the max...
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Name: Cedric Siah Yi
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Age: Finally 18
Birthday: 02/03/1992
School: Temasek Poly
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