CSYsiansation

.Friday, January 29, 2010 ' 12:01:00 AM Y

19/10/2010♥
I love you so much

Cried like hell just now...
Not too sure why too...
Thought that by doing what I did then could make me happier...
But it turned out otherwise...
I knew something was wrong...
So I called my brother to accompany me...
Little did I know that I would cry everything out...
I remembered asking my brother why I cried...
And I kept repeating it over and over again...
That was round one...

When I thought that I would not cry anymore...
I went back to the others...
And I kept saying I did not know why I cried like that...
Then I they told me...
I had too much "Fan Nao"...
And I sort of agreed to it...
I then played the song I sent to you...
The song that you said reminded you of your ex...
And upon hearing it...
I cried again for the second time...
Though it was not as bad as the first one...
It was still very bad...

Really sorry...
Sorry to everyone that was there...
Sorry to my brothers...
Sorry to my friends...
And especially sorry to my darling...
I really did not expect this to happen at all...
And because of me everyone went home late...
Really sorry to everyone...
And also...
Thank you everyone...
For being there for me...
For being there to calm me down...
For being there when I needed you the most...
Hope that this would not happen again...

The reason for me acting like I did might be because of a few things...
But I am not too sure of the reasons myself...
But I think that it might be because of all the sadness I felt being bottled up...
There are lots of unhappiness which I want to say but can't...
And even if I did say them out...
Nothing changed...
Everything always revert to the way they were the very next day...
No matter what I do...
Everything seems to be in vain...

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