.Saturday, July 11, 2009 ' 11:40:00 AM Y
19/10/2010♥
I love you so much
I hate my life...
Really hate it so much...
Sometimes really feel like dying...
Once sat on top the 12th story edge...
Almost did it...
But didn't...
Really wonder why I din't do it...
My two best friends are depression and loneliness...My stalker is bad luck...My enemy is emotions...My life is filled with nothing but trouble and boredom...Destined to be lonely forever...Don't really care...If it is such...Then so be it...I am already alone...I had always been alone...And will forever be alone...Unless things change...What about depression?Had been depressed since sec 4...After my first broke up with me...That was when I knew what depression was...And ever since then...I've been real depressed...And extremely depressed when something bad happens...I don't show all these out...Some people might think that I am weakSome might sympathise me...But overall...I hate to show emotions...Really really hate it...I might look real relaxed...But I'm not really...I am so damn stressed up...Really find it hard to cope anymore...Too many things are happening at once...Cant really take it...Might end up going insane soon...Or really jumping down this time...I really hope that my nightmare would just end...And that everything will become better somehow...
